So thankful...

I've been really hormonal and stressed lately (thank you pregnancy!), so this is as much to remind myself how lucky I am than anything else. For as long as I can remember, all I ever wanted to be in life was a wife and mother. It was what I looked forward to my whole life. Not many people can say that they were thinking about marriage and children in middle and high school, but I was. I just remember thinking through all those years that the good times were still to come. My whole life people have told me that I've tried to grow up too fast, but I can honestly say that THIS is where I've always dreamed of being in life. I'll be 25 in a couple weeks...sounds so young to be married with an 11 month old and another baby on the way, but I can't help but think how lucky I am. For those who know me well, they have witnessed that I'm not always the optimist. Thankfully I have a wonderful husband who is constantly on me about my outlook on life and reminds me how amazing our lives really are. I am still learning that happiness isn't perfection. It isn't always having the dishes done, or freshly vacuumed floor, or having a marriage without frustrations. Happiness is healthy children, a stable home, and a husband that comes home to me. I have to share my "ahh-ha moment" that I experienced yesterday. (I'm such a loser for quoting Oprah:-)) For those of you who have children, you will be able to relate to this, and for those who don't, it is just one of the many things to look forward to. The 3 of us were home yesterday, and as usual I was pestering Justin about us "getting things done" around the house. As usual, he is in no hurry to finish getting things settled and unpacked from the move, and was pestering me to "just relax!" So somewhere in the midst of daily stresses I look over at Justin and Cole to see them laying on the couch cracking up at each other. I stopped what I was doing to sit down and watch them go at this for a good 5 minutes. Although I wasnt overly impressed that my husband was sticking out his tongue and touching it to my sons nose to make him burst out in giggles, but nonetheless, they were completely in their own world. THAT is what happiness is about. It's the simplist of things that hit you so profoundly. Nothing makes me happier than to see "my boys" in complete aww of each other.

So I need to go get showered while Cole is sleeping so I can get to my dentist appt after lunch, but a quick update on Kellen... I guess I can't say that I'm surprised that I have another stubborn child. We have our 3rd ultrasound in 2 weeks to attempt one more time to get all the measurements and check all the structures of his anatomy. We had to have 3 with Cole as well because he was so far down in my cervix, and facing back, that they had a hard time seeing his head. Well, Kellen couldn't be more different. He is breech and looking straight out, so they can't get a good view of his spine. Being a NICU nurse makes it that much harder for me to wait to hear that everything "looks normal." I just hope this next ultrasound he will have moved enough for us to see is completely INTACT spine. My boys do have one thing in common, though...they are not ashamed to show their man business. Kellen is definately a BOY. Everything else is going fine with the pregnancy. I feel good, just tired. My iron has been low, but hopefully the iron supplements I've been taking for a few weeks now are helping. Got to go, hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the week.

Ok here goes...

So after a little peer pressure ;-) I'm finally trying this blog thing. I hope I will stick with it. I think if nothing else I will definately post some updates in the wee hours of the morning when there is down time at work. My goal this week is to get this thing looking nice and to post a few pictures of the family, the we'll see how things go from there.